“Are you going to cum for your master?”

06 Jul

To submit or not to submit, that is the question…

When I reblogged a Kickstarter campain for Black Door Press recently (Go Gillian!) It did something crazy to the chronological order of my posts and it made me look at a few of my very early outpourings…

When I began this blog (very impulsively!) it was all about me having this renewed sex drive and using it as much as possible (with my husband).

Yes I have always had the tendency to want to be dominated during sexual play – but this kink seems to be spilling into daily life to such an extent that, if I’d known how much I would end up doing for him – I’m not sure I would have allowed us to get together – all those years ago…

That girl when we first met, was not prim and proper. Kind of sexually experienced – but with only a few people. Above all she believed in equality between the sexes – under all circumstances and had absolutely no idea about the pleasures of submission… Although saying that she did know that pain and the idea of being dominated turned her on – but only during sex!

There has been a journey of sorts…

Its been turning over and over in my mind what the next step is – if there is to be another step…

There are many blogs with different perspectives of sub/dom relaitionships – its been rather enlightening reading them. Most seem to work very well, but they are all each unique in their own way.

What we have at the moment works. We/I am happy…

I try to make his coffee every morning (which kind of turns me on – especially if I’m abit late with it and he’s coming down the stairs and sees me scuttling around trying to get it done). I apologize alot to him. (Something about saying sorry is so horny for me.) He is also so much sterner with me in everyday life. (which makes me soooo wet!) He pushes me around – which he never used to do. He fondles and feels me (and takes my breath away) many times during each day.

But if its just about sex…

The other night we were fucking and he said

“Are you going to cum for your master?” It was like electricity shooting through me and I could feel my whole body shaking with the effects of those words…

He has never used the word ‘master’ before. Of course I orgasmed and then he said it again… But it wasn’t actually the cumming which made me stand to attention (don’t get me wrong it was delicious!)

His little string of words seemed to touch something deep inside. I didn’t talk about it afterwards. He could have been joking… or talking dirty – I guess he knows many of my little turn ons…

There is definitely a new dynamic in our relationship. Maybe that is why we are closer than we have ever been.

We’ve talked half jokingly about me being his fuckable property. I guess I am. But how far will this go?

Strangely though, I have always been the more dominant one in the relationship. Its me who has always made the ‘big’ decisions (of course with his full cooperation.)

But there is something so deliciously enticing being a slave to all his wishes… actually being owned…

Its his birthday soon and I am toying with the idea of sending him a card with:

I give myself to you…

or some such writing in. Of course I will be his present for the day (maybe its his birthday everyday!) But part of me wants to go further…

I guess we need to talk! Something in me is holding back though. He’s the sort of person, who doesn’t like setting things in stone or giving things labels or names. Maybe we don’t need to talk and it will happen naturally…

I’m not sure what will happen or what is right to be honest.

We shall see… any thoughts much appreciated…

I am going to have to get my shit together again for the next few weeks – which means visiting your blogs alot less – I really will miss you (mostly pervy) people!!  But has do be done as it does take up time reading your juicy writings! My postings have been a little thin of late – so no change on this front ; )

But it won’t be forever – just the next few weeks!

Of course I will be replying to your comments! 


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30 responses to ““Are you going to cum for your master?”

  1. eroticexploration

    July 6, 2012 at 5:58 pm

    Nice photo 🙂

    Interesting times for you indeed! Good luck with the journey.

  2. TemptingSweets99

    July 6, 2012 at 6:13 pm

    Best wishes xoxox

  3. Theo Black

    July 6, 2012 at 11:43 pm

    I can see how you might need a break, after all the beautiful, personal stuff you share here. (Thank you sincerely.) There are times when I have to remind myself that the blog is there to celebrate my life, not the other way around.

    • sexuallifeofawife

      July 7, 2012 at 7:16 am

      Thank you Theo, your words are very touching.
      The break is more to earn some darn money – rather than because of an overkill in sharing ; )

  4. Bella

    July 7, 2012 at 12:43 am

    Cant wait to “see” you again! I’ve loved reading your blog.
    I think you’re lovely! (I swear this isn’t spam)

    • sexuallifeofawife

      July 7, 2012 at 7:20 am

      Thank you Bella!
      Its ok, I didn’t think you were spam – not with your gravatar image ; )

  5. pivoine68

    July 7, 2012 at 9:07 am

    I love your blog too!


  6. The Hook

    July 7, 2012 at 12:36 pm

    Have fun on your blogging campaign!

  7. Reed

    July 7, 2012 at 5:36 pm

    As always, I love how alike and how different we are.

    • Reed

      July 7, 2012 at 6:07 pm

      And I got up ridiculously early this morning (5:30) to make River’s coffee while she showered. I personally can’t stand the stuff, but I do it because I love her. And because I like to watch her in the shower.

      • sexuallifeofawife

        July 8, 2012 at 12:27 pm

        I’m just glad it doesn’t turn you off!

        But you do it out of love and I do it for cheap thrills. Oh, you like to watch her in the shower – that counts as a cheap thrill doesn’t it.
        Yes there are definitely similarities between us ; ) I don’t drink coffee either – but I do love the smell of it…

  8. Shar

    July 8, 2012 at 4:11 pm

    I love your blog. I’m a sub who is married to a man not yet willing to expire his Dom side. I’m not giving up yet. But I love reading your posts and it gives me something to look forward to.

    • sexuallifeofawife

      July 9, 2012 at 8:54 am

      Oh no don’t give up ; )
      Thank you Shar for your lovely comment!

    • demuzzled

      August 15, 2012 at 6:49 pm

      Shar–let me know how this works for you–I am in the same boat!!!

  9. thedomnextdoor

    July 11, 2012 at 12:31 pm

    A beautiful peek inside. Don’t underestimate the power of words in sex. They often can be more exciting than anything that can be done physically. Words arouse and fuck your spirit and soul.

    • sexuallifeofawife

      July 11, 2012 at 3:37 pm

      Thank you Domnextdoor! So true what you say and I love your words ‘ arouse and fuck your spirit and soul’ – Beautiful!

  10. deviant wench

    July 20, 2012 at 3:24 am

    “Are you going to cum for your master?”

    What an amazingly sexy question. Hawt hawt hawt.

    There is a huge different between Top & Dom, and Dom & Master. A Top, to me, just means being the pitcher; there’s no power exchange involved. A Dom is a pitcher plus power exchange–to some unspecified degree, for some unspecified time period, unique to every situation. A Master is a Dom, plus “I own you heart and soul. You belong to me. You are MINE. You will ALWAYS be mine. Mine. MINE. **MINE**!!! Do you understand? MINE.”

    Tops are fun, Doms are sexy, but having Himself as my Master makes me whole. Which is why, when I asked him to enter this life with me, I asked him to be my Master, and not my Dom. I wanted that feeling of ownership, of belonging to him and only him, of being cherished and protected and loved so fiercely….


    Clearly I am all in favor of Mastery.

    I look forward to seeing how this plays out for you.

    • sexuallifeofawife

      July 26, 2012 at 9:35 pm

      Thank you Deviant Wench for your most detailed comment – very informative for me!
      Yes, you are indeed in favor of Mastery and from your blog it reads most deliciously!
      And I look forward to playing it out… ; )

  11. hotcopofcoffee

    July 26, 2012 at 7:34 am

    How do you get started with a sub/dom relationship? I’m interested in bringing it into my relationship, but don’t know how. Any suggestions?

    • sexuallifeofawife

      July 26, 2012 at 9:42 pm

      Well Hotcop, you could begin by asking your partner if they like the idea of receiving/giving pain. I think you’ll get an idea from their reaction to your question whether to go on with the conversation or not ; )
      If you have been in the relationship for a while – you may have an inkling from your sexual pursuits together whether your partner is up for anything a little kinkier. If they are, then maybe this can be brought further into your daily doings…

      • mark

        August 5, 2012 at 3:35 am

        its fairly simple to me if i like it & my girl likes it then wheres the problem? by the way the kink is never overlooked

    • mark

      August 5, 2012 at 5:41 am

      if subtle isnt an option try get really drunk one night tell him what you want after the hangover see what remains

  12. Virtual Sinner

    August 2, 2012 at 7:14 pm

    To hell with your master, are you going to cum for me? Are you going to stick your hand into your undies and run your fingertips up and down your lady parts because i say so? Are you going to get out a vibrator and make waves for the little man in the boat just because it’s my idea? Are you going to push your panties down to your thighs and bend over you bed and stick a dildo up your honey hole because you hope I’ll get hot when you report it?

    Well, are you?

    • sexuallifeofawife

      August 5, 2012 at 7:38 pm

      Ok to hell with my master! Your wish Virtual Sinner is my command!


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