I was falling asleep – but aware of him coming to bed – I wanted him to maul me and was willing him to wake me up for a fuck – and he did…
It was a mixture of urgent fucking, but with some tenderness thrown in every now and again. Three orgasms for me and he came pretty quick after – probably about 10 minutes…
Just before we started the lovemaking I had this urge for him to go down on me. What’s so unusual about that you may say? Well I used to be abit hung up about my body and its secretions and made it clear when we first met that I didn’t want him to use his tongue thus – so its been about 19 years!!!
Anyway I felt too embarrassed last night to say anything before hand – crazy really as normally I am so forward and open with my sexual needs…
After sex, I just felt like I wanted to be really close, so I put my head on his chest and I felt so in love. I said I had two things that I wanted to ask him. I got abit inarticulate then… but I managed to somehow gabble out that the next time I have a bath (a bath! my god I’m still worried about offending him with my wetness!) would he put his tongue down there… “Of course! I’ve often wanted to do that – but you wouldn’t let me.” He replies sweetly.
The 2nd thing is “Have you fucked anyone whilst you’ve been with me?” “No,” He answer’s sounding surprised and a little offended. I’ve asked him this question maybe three times in the last 20 years – I know you can never be sure and he has lied about little things in the past – but I think I might believe him. If he has slept with anyone else – I’m at the stage where it wouldn’t be the end of the world – I would feel hurt of course.
Then he asked me… I said that I couldn’t possibly sleep with anyone else and not tell him – catholic ancestors and all that – in fact I would find it hard to keep anything from him..
But then this blog!!!! Surely I’m keeping this a secret. I don’t know if he would mind – he might even be flattered. Actually there are two things that worry me about telling him about this:
The first is that he will become self conscious and maybe do things differently… Saying that, I haven’t changed in the way I act sexually after beginning this blog.
The second and probably much more scary thing is that he will read all my posts – and being a brilliant writer – he will see all the grammatical errors I have done and all the parts where the writing isn’t so great etc
Oh well, I guess he’ll just have to beat me!